I've been on HRT a while, but I keep constantly thinking of detransitioning, because I'm very indecisive about whether I want to live as a man or a woman. I need a way to find this out for real and in totality. One day I think I would be a lot happier as a man especially since I would be more attractive to women but also because I could lead a more dominant lifestyle, and stuff like that. The next day I think I must become a woman because it would treat my dysphoria I may or may not even really have, and I like the feminine aesthetic enough that I wish to embody it.
However I'm also masculine enough that I would require FFS to pass, and I don't really want to have to go through with that, seems like a lot of work and money. Plus what if I regret it?
Anyway when I was really young I prayed to become a girl multiple times and I crossdressed also, and when I hit puberty I found out what transgender means and instantly thought it was me. But I'm really impressionable unfortunately, so I don't know how to figure out what my real gender identity is, thus why it seems to change everyday. and I can't commit to being a man or woman due to that.
So is there a retard-proof way to figure this out for certain?