>>25596303>you've probably spoken to professionals about itSomewhat. I've seen a therapist and been diagnosed but he did it so demurely I didn't even think to ask what it was, so only realized fully what was up later in life when I remembered I'd been diagnosed with it and got bored enough to look it up, which connected a lot of dots for me and made me realize why I hate normal people so much and why they act the way they do. In general, I don't care about how others view me unless it's advantageous to me or hurts me socially, which can cost me things I want want like job opportunities, so there's no reason for me not to speak of it candidly so long as it's on an anonymous place like this.
Now to stop wasting your time. The appeal of vtubers is that they're like normal streamers (which tend to be really boring unless they're funny/charismatic enough that even I'd recognize them as funny, and I've spent most of my life learning to be as charismatic and funny as possible to blend in and get a good social standing despite my mental hang-ups, so I have a high bar for funny) plus the anime aesthetic, plus the fact they're playing pretend as an anime boy/girl over that all at the same time. I feel it's really interesting to watch people juggle all this at the same time, so instead of getting bored of them just playing games, I can have it all at the same time, otherwise they'd probably bore me too. It may also be a kind of morbid interest as they're pretending to be an anime person, while I have to pretend to be a normal person all the time in public and constantly emulate the reactions I think people should have/expect me to have, so I guess that's pretty interesting to watch, but I've never really given it too much thought. Thinking about it now I feel like I'd be a pretty good vtuber kek
>If you dont mind me askingYou can ask me whatever you'd like, but I want to ask you things too if you'd be willing. What's the appeal of vtubers to you? Do you empathize with them in some way and that's somehow in the appeal? The way you asked the question seems to imply this.
>>25597032I tried to write it as logically as I could, as it tends to let people understand my way of thinking a little easier than if I write it more "normally" and with more emotion to make them more comfortable, so maybe that has something to do with it.
