>>25760906Same anon, I think I can eke out a more cogent response now.
>How are vtubers impacting your mental health?Poorly. For a while it was probably one of the more benign things I could have done in my free time, but this February changed that. Watching Rushia suffer all that harassment and pain hurt me. I tried not to think about it too much, dismissing it as drama that would blow over, but then the termination absolutely destroyed me. I watched her mental state disintegrate and I fell with her. I was the most depressed and suicidal that I had been for years. I realized after a while that I was in love with her, and blatantly had some type of feelings for her beforehand which I tried to suppress because I didn't want to be the type to fall in love with a vtuber. I did anyway. This then brought on its own problems which would have been bad enough under normal circumstances. This obviously intensified my obsession. I don't think I've ever been as obsessed with anything as I am now with her. Sometimes it feels like a fever. I'm trying my best to support her and I'm proud of how far she's come, but I'm constantly anxious I'll upset her or somehow make things worse. And this isn't even starting to get into my entrance into schizophrenia as I try to figure out how to make her love me in the same way I love her.
