I've had a lot of fun discovering and watching VTubers over this corona period. But something about it just leaves me with a bad taste afterwards. It's like when you eat a big greasy fast food meal and it tastes great but you can just feel afterwards that you did something super unhealthy to your body.

Everything just feels so empty after I'm done consuming it. I don't know these Vtubers personally, what they're really like, they will never know who I am, I will never know of their friendships are genuine and even if they are I'll never experience anything like it. I'm no stranger to escapism, I watch anime, I play Japanese RPGs, but none of those leave me with this hollow feeling.