Reminder:
>your oshi doesn't love you
>your oshi doesn't care about you
>your oshi doesn't know who you are
>your oshi forgets your name a nanosecond after she finishes reading the superchat
Don't worry, it's not you anon, it's the same for everyone. Most vtubers, specially those working for big companies like Cover, just see streaming as a low-effort/high reward revenue source (trust me, I know). Everything they do is tailored to attract as many whales as they can so that they can get money to spend with their actual irl partners.
There are few girls in Hololive that actually care and genuinely enjoy what they are doing, like Risu, but the whales would rather simp for people like pic related instead, just for the dopamine rush of being pandered for a minute.
It's generally better for indies, but since the concept of vtubers exploded in popularity since holoen became a thing, a lot of people jumped into the bandwagon hoping to cash in before the trend ends.
So overall you should just follow the confirmed good talents, like Risu.