>>27312023I had an ultimate vtuber oshi in niji that graduated last year so my condolences to the mayu fans. When my oshi announced their graduation, i was sad as fuck and vow to quit the vtuber things altogether unless they decide to return again. After the graduation Happen i basically cleanse my yt so i wont get any recommendation abt any vtuber whatso ever.
And the worst was the graduation stream, when i watched it live, in the first few seconds, all my memory with them came flashing back… i cried so hard at a future without them…
I would say having a oshi makes me feel things i never did before and i can still shed a tears now thinking about the absence and the past.
I would say the worst thing is the hope i have that they’ll eventually come back. There was an incident once when i thought they’ll reincarnate in this vgroup but that didn’t happen and i was sad again. The same situation happen the second time and i was scared to hope. The feeling of anxiety wanting to see whether it is them again was really taxing for me.
And the worst thing is, when they do comeback and something changes abt them. A difference from the person that i once like…
