>>2747533How I've seen it is that it's just a nice fantasy to indulge in. You have to remember that it's just a fantasy, because trying to make it a reality will just cause you even more pain.
Think of it like this. Maybe your oshi represents the kind of person you're really into. Watching her makes you feel all the things you want to feel, and I really do think there's some level of appreciation towards you, not specifically or individually, but the fact that you're supporting her I'm sure makes her smile, just the same as how watching her and supporting her makes you smile too.
I love my oshi. So fucking much. And I'm so glad for her, I smile a lot more because of her, and I think about her every damn day. Hell, I even fantasize about her a lot. Because of her, I have something to look forward to each week to help me face the day.
Still, my fantasies will remain that: just fantasies. Maybe one day she'll stop streaming for whatever reason, but that's why you should just cherish her while she's still around.
So just have fun, indulge in the fantasy, but don't go too far. Have her motivate you or inspire you to better yourself for your sake. And feel the things she makes you feel, because they're pretty good feelings.
>tl;dr:Enjoy your oshi, anon. Imagine she's your girlfriend or wife and have fun with those thoughts, but just remember not to lose yourself, for your sake.
