>>27787864>this board (which she lurks)That's probably extremely unhealthy.
After taking a fucklong break from this site, having an autistic introspection arc, and realizing that the first One Piece opening spoiled what Gold Roger's greatest treasure was...all while blasting pirate metal and thinking about how Elira's nudes would allow me to better render an imaginary version of her on the canvas of my soul because muh "will of D"...I came to an epiphany that vtubers are actually incredibly sympathetic people whose constant exposure to social media must be an existential nightmare.
Taking some time away from a negative feedback timeloop isn't necessarily a bad thing, and might actually result in positive character development.