>>29235070I don't know if there is a special term for this, but you see it everywhere when it comes to these kinds of officially high status/holy cow hobbyhorses, this kind of 'acknowledgement parallax'.
Where, on one hand, the party in question vocalizes a demand that (you) acknowledge them; yet on the other hand, they also flee like vampires from sunlight if you start openly identifying them as things that exist.
It's as if on some level, even though they want to be publicly lionized, there is also some part of them that also believes that they, *themselves*, are something inherently shameful, flawed, or execrable, and that if other people notice their existence, they will be 'found out' by them.
So they spiral back and forth in this twisted kind of 'representation hot potato', where if they are not in something, then say they want to be put in it; and if they are in something, they say they want to be taken out of it; and there is no peace, no touchstone, no stable foundation for any of it, because it is the feeling of exercising power itself, of having impact on something, whatever it was and regardless of what it will be; just an eternity of manic displacement activity, papering over a yawning empty void.
