I feel like a fake fan. It's been like a year and a half that I don't keep up with the JP girls. Just some clips every now and then. Watame was my oshi and it has been several months since I last watched her. I feel like a traitor. I also haven't seen much of gen 6, I barely know them. I haven't seen much of ID either. I've been kinda following HoloEN, but even them I'm not _properly_ following. I just watch random streams. I missed many important events. It has also been more than a year that I don't watch Hologra and don't listen to new songs, not even HoloEN songs. I almost don't even check Holostars, I watched Tempus' debuts and that was all. I'm so far behind that I'm not sure if I can even call myself a Hololive fan anymore. 2 years ago I used to keep up with everything that was going on, but now I can't. And since I can't keep pace with everything and everyone, I end up giving up and don't watch anything. And again, I feel like a traitor. This is stupid, but it really makes me sad. I feel like I'm failing with them and with myself.