> love GFE
> hate male collabs
> hate grass
> hate the antichrist

My oshi tells me she loves me. She reads my comments in chat, She answers my questions when I ask them, she laughs at my jokes, she thanks me for my support, she's retweeted my comments on twitter. This is not a parasocial relationship because it is by definition not parasocial, these are all actual social interactions. These are actual social interactions that I am happy with and enjoy having with her and happy sharing with the rest of the community that watches her streams.
I have a more direct and robust "relationship" with my oshi than almost any women have ever had with the boy-bands and movie stars who they obsess over and their fantasies are treated as normal. But for me to entertain a fantasy toward a woman who has found it agreeable to her to tease that fantasy for me marks me as toxic and strange to the normies who persecute me and others like me.
The uncomfortable truth you cannot face is that I am not the toxic one. It is not I who cannot distinguish between fantasy in reality. It's you, the anon who thinks that because I support the fantasy that means I am obligated to support the reality. It's the chuuba who allows her real life to interfere with her ability to play her character.
I am psychologically normal and I will not be bullied into thinking otherwise.
I love GFE
Here I stand, I can do no other.