>>37544422lmao you bumped my thread on last page or something so I'll answer it sincerely.
once you realize that you will forget everything inbetween lives and that you'll simply be given new "parents", new name, new vices, etc, it all feels like one big joke. there's no main questline, no final boss, no knowledge that an ordinary person can obtain to escape the cycle. the only given hint, as far as my studies of gnostic texts go, is martyrdom. but then there is also the mystical "bridal chamber", the reunion with your counterpart in the flesh, accomplished not by sex, but by kissing. i'm in my 30s and am rendered a eunuch because when i look at attractive women, i'm reminded that they're other men's counterparts, which means that if i were to date any of them, i'd be cucking mine AND her male half knowingly. most people don't even think about these things and go to their graves, which is how population is kept above threshold. so now i'm left unable to feel solid motivation for anything, the biggest one being a relationship. at this point i want Botan to shoot me in the head, but that won't happen so i keep going until hopefully the 144,000 assembly during which virgins will be paired up with their counterparts, given the sweet release of suicide mission.
