I know this sounds like generic question but I feel empty af ever since I dropped my last oshi(feeling embarrassed to mention her btw) bcoz "parasocial bad". I do still watch and support some vtuber that looks cute, entertaining to listen, and good at games I like, but they don't feel like new oshi at all coz I know most of them are either taken or crazy at other male streamers. As much as I hate the concept of GFE, I can't help but to crave for it. I just want a girl that genuinely accept me as who I am, a girl that loves ME and nothing else, a girl that will never exist IRL based on my relationship experience.