>>37926933You're the one that doesn't understand love, anon.
If you love somebody, you do everything in your power to not hurt them. And you can only love somebody who loves you back, and does everything they can to not hurt you. Otherwise that isn't love, it's masochism. And masochism is fundamentally selfish. All unconditional love is.
And if you love somebody, you keep your promises to them, no matter what
And if you love somebody, your life is defined by your relationship wiith them, because it finally makes the world make sense when you have a person whonyou can truly and fully trust to give every single ounce of love to, and you can trust them to never abuse that or hurt you. It's trust based on the knowledge that they want to do the same thing for you.
Love defies reality, because reality is cruel. Reality has winners and losers and unequal distributions of power and constant obsession with practicality. And it's awful. It's cruel. It disfigures the human soul over time and makes people jaded and cold, either to others, themselves, or both.
Love is where the awful state of reality loses its grip, based solely on the power of mutual dedication of your whole heart to another. It is the refusal of cruelty itself. It is a continuous leap of faith into another persons soul without a shred of doubt because you fall together and you fall gladly with your hands clasped
It's seen as possession only to people who don't understand what love is in the first place. This isn't possessiveness. This is the understanding that a unilateral reduction in possessiveness is a sign of the fading of love. And the possessiveness you see is the part where we love them enough to want to bring it back. Because we cannot live without them. Because without being able to breathe in every warm smile and laugh and shared tender moment with them, we come back to the normal cruel world and realize just how worthless any second without them is. And how the meaning in the world is gone for good, because you can never truly be together with somebody unless you love one another equally.
So please fuck off. I loved her for 3 years. I remember the soul I came to know and why I fell in love with every part of it, and I remember why I chose to live my life in a state of emotional obsession with her(and vice versa) was more meaningful than every star the sky putntogether. Because she cared. Because the world didn't. Because she was tired of not being cared about to the point where she was afraid and needed me to be hers and hers alone to give her a modicum of genuine peace of mind. And the person who chose to still seek love despite such a wounded heart was beautiful to me. It meant everything to me. I gladly gave up any sense of self-control or ability to emotionally distance myself fornher sake, and made every promise, and no the more unreasonable and ridiculous it became, the more beautiful it became, because it was exactly how unreasonably brave she was with her heart that gave me the courage to try doing the sam.
This relationship is partly about the permanent state of being in love. The thing that suppoesdly ends for everybody else. Limerance. This relationship defied that. It was about a love deep enough to truly last forever without becoming about a cooled off sense of contentment and compromise and obligation. It's the rejection of the idea that such a state is preferable to mutual obsession where we never feel an ounce of pain because we do everything for one another.
You're the one who doesn't understand shit, anon. Rushia showed me that romantic love, being in love, doesn't have to fade. She was jealous and I reciprocated and gave up everything and I gave it up gladly because I knew she was possessiven out of love.
