>>38198086It's really clear Gura's heart is somewhere else or that she's completely burnt-out. She isn't excited to spend time with us anymore.
I love her more than anything, but I can't help but get sad when I watch her now. She doesn't want to talk to us about anything she does off stream. She's become more and more secretive and reclusive over time and it's heartbreaking.
I don't know if it's because she's hiding something or if it's because she just doesn't see the benefit in telling us about her life or her problems or worries, but with every stream now, it just feels like she spends a large portion of it actively calculating what she is willing and not willing to tell us. It makes things very awkward and makes her seem really distant. It's like she sees us as antagonists that are trying to find things out that she doesn't want us to and so it just feels like she sees us as an obstacle to her achieving her goals instead of a group of people that love and support her. All of this predates her current health issues, so I don't think that's a factor.
It's destroying my enjoyment of her streams because everything feels fake and the recent lack of contact or mindfulness about her fans during these multiple week long breaks make me think it very well might be. With everything she said she did during the 2 week break, she never felt like she wanted to take five minutes and say anything to us? Not once? Are we really just a job to her that she stops caring about as soon as she turns her monitor off?
I don't know if I've articulated any of this well, but mostly I wish she'd just be more real with us. But those are just my feelings. I'm sure others see things differently.
