-6 DAYS REMAIN -
CD link:
https://lnk.to/mc_sdl_ec05. NEZUMI Scheme (MV:
https://youtu.be/N9cflnJYZ9c )
SIN CLASSIFICATION: Pride
Rat hole (nezumi kou), pyramid scheme, same thing but in different languages.
Pretending to make money, be big, be the shit...when you're actually not even sure what you've really got.
"There's a stark difference between hubris and self-confidence."
Isn't that the truth, though! I feel it every day. And yet, finding the perfect balance between the highs and lows of pride and self-hatred is a battle in and of itself.
There are truthfully days where I wish I never did very well from the beginning.
That way, any sense of failure, degrading or down-fall wouldn't be as tough to deal with. But from the start, I don't know if I really truly had any high expectations for myself. Just that, when I started to fly, I couldn't believe it and I liked how it felt to like myself.
NezuMori in this MV is an exaggerated version of myself, realizing I'm the biggest fish in a small pond and getting cocky over it. Fast-forward to me heading into the ocean, and I'm just another decent sized fish- albeit, on the smaller side. And making this MV helped me come to terms with myself, where I stand in Holo and the music world, and it felt sobering. Now I'm just having fun in this pond, counting my blessings I get to do what I love with creators I admire. Not everyone gets that, and it's a good life. Maybe my subconscious pride had to take a hit, but life is more relaxed now. I really love making music, because despite the heart breaking stuff, I'm still doing it. I'm glad I made this video, I'm glad I made this song. FAKE TYPE. was the start line for my music career anyways, as I always loved their work and sought to be as good as them someday. I don't know if that's a feat I'll ever accomplish, but if I can't, then working with them is the next greatest...nah, actually BEST thing.
I hope you'll continue to enjoy this song, being one of my faves on the album. It is without a doubt, 100% unapologetically me.
-Yours,
Calliope Mori
