>>41312969This past will never exist again.
It was fun with Coco...
>>41318972She does it because her father rejected her when she was a child and didn't want her.
She is trying to get the love she didn't get from her parents from her fans and viewers.
The more viewers she gets the more loved she feels and the less this memory hurts her.
That's how it was at first but she may be healing with time and wants to enjoy the time with the people who supported her.