>>41666667>>41669109So close to the perfect digits of 6x6...but on a serious note, that is a very unhealthy mindset to get into. Would recommend listening to the advice in
>>41668607...
Effectively no amount of simping will make a tangible difference in winning over your oshi....just become a gosling and accept its not meant to be. Paypig whaling really isn't much better than having a gacha/gambling addiction where you waste everything you earn on literally nothing. Healthy levels of support (member, occasional merch, maybe one or two supas a month) might be fine, but you can support your oshi with nothing more than a membership and enjoy the GFE on a budget.
Relationship IRL can often be just as bad or worse if you aren't in the right headspace...its a futile effort to pursue actively unless you are already well put together (and let's face it, no one put together is on /vt/ and whaling on akasupas). Unironically "improve yourself" memes and quitting /vt/ for /fit/ might be your best path to salvation.
At some point you have to accept a parasocial relationship is basically just a rental GF service, akin to hiring an escort to pretend to love you. Even if it's a tad more personal, ultimately you will not be anyting more than just another fan (at best) or an exploited paypig (at worst). It's perfectly fine to use GFE as a crutch to replace/substitute real affection (which is high cost/commitment and not feasibly attainable for most on this board in their current state), but don't mistake it for actual affection.
There's a lot of discussion on the Miori thread
>>41662808 about this same topic, but ultimately unless you are that unicorn guy her parents dream about (fit, 6'+, rich, successful, young, white/asian etc), you are just wasting your time.
unless you are a fat SEA groomer who can indeed creep on 2views a la Lia drama....so maybe there is hope for you after all 
