Selen has had four major yabs I'm aware of. Moments when she had what amounted to a mental breakdown on stream.
Breakdown 1:
>playing Apex with bonbon, fun stream
>suddenly get messaged by Gorilla they're looking for another team for their tournament
>she agrees out of pride, although you can see her suddenly get really nervous
>the tournament happens, she gets completely shit on
>starts getting more and more anxious, the laughing stopped
>getting angry and frustrated with BonBon because he's a worse player than her, ordering him around and frustrated he doesn't listen
>has something of a mental breakdown, the mood completely changed, people watching are genuinely worried about her.
Breakdown 2:
>enters another tournament, gets teamed up with BonBon because they get along well in the past
>this time BonBon promises to follow her instructions
>get completely shit on again, can barely even kill a single person and get wiped every time
>once again, the mood goes cold
>no more laughing, quiet angst and brooding anger
>Bonbon wants to switch characters to his main, she gets extremely angry and they fight on stream
>by the end, stress levels are at maximum
>BonBon has a crying breakdown on stream, openly sobbing (blames it on kidney stones)
>Selen and Bonbon's relationship is permanently damaged
Breakdown 3:
>Challenges the other NijiEN girls to a "kill race", expecting to win easily
>they turn out to be much better players than she anticipated
>start racking up kills while she is getting wiped out instantly
>slowly dawns on her she's going to lose
>Finana sniping like a god, Elira proficiently wiping entire teams
>Selen suffers a complete mental breakdown, once again the laughing stops and she grows cold
>starts making excuses, Elira just chuckles a bit at her the whole time
>later Selen clipped the vod to remove the menhera rant, but it's still in Elira's vod
Breakdown 4:
>wants to play MGR to impress Pomu
>gamer girl can play on normal mode no problem right?
>she sucked, she sucked really bad
>couldn't even beat the tutorial miniboss
>chat is telling her she sucks, she goes menhera
>stops the game, plays every single tutorial while badmouthing chat
>viewers plummet and never bounce back
>somewhat recovers by the end of the stream, but still a painful experience
>says she won't play any more Metal Gear games cursing "backseaters"
Maybe there's more I don't know about.
The change observed in her personality was very unsettling each time. It's like she became a different person.
