>>43391583Honestly, I'm not surprised, she's snapped at chatters before, and has a bad habit of interpreting what other people say, including other vshojos, to her in the worst possible light, even if their intentions were completely inoffensive. We know she had at least one abusive ex who threw things at her, and had multiple relationships which failed for unknown reasons. Her stream persona is extroverted and bubbly, but she's admitted to having a hard time talking with people offstream, with reaching out to people to introduce herself or talk unprompted being a specific difficulty. She gets very upset by the idea of being left alone, or her chat leaving her. Speaking of her chat, she's also very emotionally attached to them. She's shown signs of possibly having hypersexual tendencies, towards chat and other streamers, and has repeatedly voiced a desire to be seen as sexy and desirable by others. During a breakdown about her father she mentioned that she hates herself. She once said to herself during a minor breakdown over a puzzle in a game that "if I'm not good at this I'm not good at anything". While the VOD has long been deleted, I once heard an anon say that during another breakdown, this one over being spawncamped by mobs in minecraft, she started crying out of frustration and got mad at herself for it, and apologized for "not being a good waifu" or something else along those lines. She also apologized during her response stream to the recent drama for making chat see this side of her when she wants everyone in her streams to be happy, complained about feeling left behind by Vshojo, seems to fall out of relationships in general easily through a lack of communication, and, during a Mouse outfit debut, tweeted that "someday I'll matter too" before instantly deleting the tweet.
TL;DR: She's broken. Not in the tragic, beautiful, princess-in-a-tower way, but in an ugly, real, brutal, menhera way, where she's arguably just as much, if not more of the tower than she is the princess. It hurts seeing her like this and knowing how hard she works to push it down and make people happy.
