Sorry, my formatting didn't work so I deleted my post earlier. Also, right in the middle of a stream was a bad time for posting this lel
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>>4420566shit. I should axe myself for mistyping the spoiler brackets. Also this took me hours to finish so when I'm done writing this, the old thread almost died...
>>4424873 >>4427417 >>4427531 >>4424960Okay Anons. Thank you for the advice to hold back. With the cloud over my mind clearing, I guess my best bet to satisfy the cravings is to do archive reps, and/or just get rid of it as much as possible (knowing I'm creepy for doing these helps a lot with that desu).
If found that my problem was I'm being self-entitled for feeling that I found her as a diamond in the rough, and was gosling too hard for her from browsing too much 4ch, while also being over confident with my social media skills by thinking “With a few tactical comments or superchats, I, can help uncover the gem that she is without harming her or myself while simultaneously helping all of her fans figure out more about her greatness!" even though 1) The “uncovering” part is pointless since she's already making steps to do that on her own, starting from becoming a holo, and has started moving faster towards that goal (as can be observed from the latest karaoke stream which i've heard was a very long one (cmiiw)), 2) everyone already knows how good she is at singing, and 3) I've proven myself again and again that I sucked balls at doing just that.
This persistence probably has something to do with my complex of befriending a bullied or outcast member of my classmates at school. Now that I think about it, I didn't really do anything for them, rather they saved me from being alone since I never fit in anywhere else in school.God, I'm thankful I met so many wonderful people by being a weeb that browses the internet all day long, but I feel like I went down such a shit street in life when it comes to social interactions.4th point is I also probably was trying to project myself to practice how to approach a girl like her should an opportunity come. But after this thought session, I can see how these desires I’ve described can be harmful to me and those I interact with
(it could be, right?) were I to not tread lightly. SO, I should consider it more and take more time with it, and probably try consulting with fellow shrimps about this.
So here’s a question that has been nagging on my brain, I just can’t help but ask this for those who have watched her more than I do,
When do you think will she speak about how people see her by her voice, and how it has been affecting her relationship with her voice and musicality. Or has she done it before?
Should she speak about it? I think so simply because it feels like she is a rare case of a super talented performer being very close to her viewers. Feel free to disagree though.
All in all, thank you /ggg/. I’m indebted to you once again.
