I can’t tell if she’s the most geniune, loving, enthusiastic vtuber out there who truly loves her fans or if she’s a manipulative business woman who is a master at social conditioning and hates us all. I feel as if it’s one or the other with no in between

Not knowing where we stand makes me much more uncomfortable, but that’s a me problem. If she didn’t care i’d be easily be able to remove any parasoical feelings I had away, but that lack of knowledge is genuinely painful because she might truly care and appreciate us but i’m scared to care too much about a woman who will never know I exist