>>44898753I remember her saying she would sometimes have nightmares about streaming apex, which is pretty sad to think about considering how much she used to enjoy it.
She has very high expectations of her gaming skill and viewers also have high expectations of her gaming skill and I think it just results in a ton of pressure on her whenever she tries to stream games. Feels like she basically can't play anything without making it some sort of competitive event / challenge run / etc. Even playing through the new pokemon game she forbid herself from using items in battle and was pretty much constantly evaluating pokemon based on their strength and competitive viability instead of being able to really relax with the game.
>>44898325>Hell she even sounds happy upbeat and not a complete retard like how she talks now.This part Aqua actually mentioned a bit herself, she said she was sort of shy/loner to start out but everyone kept mentioning it and she started to see it as part of her character, and so she really played up her social inability as a character trait. And then eventually she realized she'd been faking it so long she kind of forgot how to actually interact with people
