>>45514645Do you know any girls IRL?
Wait, what am I asking...
...You're doing this to yourself because you want to be in a position to choose between potential girlfriends but you feel it's weird since it's impossible in this shitty ass modern era. So you punish yourself.
Seriously, just donate 2 bucks to her, or whatever. These feelings will disappear as soon as you realize the transaction.
If they don't, congratulations on your oshi.