>watch a chuuba
>make her my oshi
>she says she loves me and can't live without me
>having intrusive shower thoughts about her having a boyfriend
>realize she's a pretty ongoing girl so the % of boyfriend is actually really high
>conflicted on whether I should continue watching her or should just quietly leave her
I can't /vt/. I just can't. I love this girl very much but I feel so very cucked right now. I'm not even sure if she has a boyfriend but not knowing is killing me. What should I do anons? I don't want to lose her but I also don't want to be a cuck