I have come to the conclusion today that this hobby is ruining my life. I spend far too much time of my day watching streams, watching clips, readings threads and suddenly it's already night again. I sleep, wake up and the same thing repeats.
I started watching vtuber early 2022 and it feels to me as if everything happened so quickly, so fast, suddenly the year ended and WHO THE FUCK WE ARE ALREADY 1/3 WAY IN 2023????

I didn't accomplished anything meaningful in my life since vtubers became my main entertainment option. Even when I used to watch twitch streamers and youtube videos I stay managed to work on stuff, study, go out with friends and meeting with family. But now? The sun and moon rises and falls while my ass is always glued to the chair. I don't even remember the last time I did some work up. My diet is terrible and showering became bothersome because "I'll miss something if I leave now!!".

I'm 23 year old and I want to study again, I want to find a job, I want to have friends, I want to have a health life again. But just the thought of stopping watching streams or at least decrease the amount of it immediately gives me dreadful amounts of anxiety. Is this how a drug addicts feels like? My life is passing by and all I do with my irreplaceable time is watching anime girls.

How do I fucking stop???