None of these women will never know we exist, and if they do it'll be but a fleeting thought. We're wasting away our lives watching and enjoying experiences with an led screen. None of these emotions and experiences we share will ever be recipractaed or agknolweged by anyone else.

It might as well be mental masturbation. We're pretending to have connections we never will.

I feel digsuting writing this. I really like my oshi, but she'll never know that. I'll always only be a number to her, it's impossible for any human to have so many meaningfull social connections.

I'm fairly confident that if we met in real life we'd have a good shot of being friends, but that doesn't matter because we never will meet and i'm wasting away my time obessing over women who will never be with me when I have the opportuinty to connect with real ones in my day to day life.

This turned into a cathartic rant post, that's fine. Hope if anyone reads this they get some kinda use out of it, if not it at least helped me process what i've been struggilng to verbalize for the past few days