Intellectually, I know she's 100% correct. There is no feasible way for her to befriend 700,000 people, it's neurologically impossible for a human being to have that many distinct relationships.


That doesn't make what she said hurt any less though. I'm genuinely in love with her, each and every part. Her laugh never fails to cheer me up, her jokes make me cackle, her asmr lets me feel safe enough to try and love myself.

I understand that loving her is flat out stupid, but emotions aren't rational. I've tried, but I can't love her any less. She's the kind of woman I dream of falling in love with together and starting a loving family.

I know it is a better use of my time to work on myself instead of chasing after her, I know that, but if I was able to do that in the first place I wouldn't be here!!!!

So what the hell do you want from me fauna?! You can't make me fall in love with you and then tell me we'll never be together, that's too cruel.


God it hurts