Bah! I had an answer mostly typed out but my phone decided to refresh the page because I left my phone for too long. It's what I deserve for phone posting.
>>5169054The first Nijimale that caught my interest was Genzuki Tojiro, although I would probably be lying if I said first love, as it was more of a passing interest before I got trapped here. But Genzuki was 100% the first boy to grab my attention. I posted this already, and it's crazy to think it was only a little over a month ago, but I first got into the Nijimales (Vtubers in general to be honest) when I watched a compilation by the official channel of a bunch of them (trying to) speaking English. Genzuki stood out to me with his very soft voice and great pronunciation. But I think the thing that made me search him was actually the way he pronounced "manager" in the video, purely because it sounded like he had my country's accent when he said. I thought it was kinda cute. So, I decided to look up some more videos of him.
Through him, I discovered Kaida, and something about him just endeared me to him, till I suddenly realised it was 4am and I had been watching clips of Kaida for the entire night. He's really my first love and still is my oshi. Considering the experience I've had with him so far, I think he will be for quite a while. I think the moment I fell for him, and the moment I realised I fallen in deep, was when he spoke about being an introvert, and the difference with extroverts. A lot of what he said resonated with me, and I suppose I connected with him. He seems like a person who thinks deeply on things.
Throw in his lovely, and to me unique, singing, his design, and his general personality, and he pretty much hooked me.
There's also the fact he's makes me want to both tease him and care for him at the same time but we'll ignore that. Nowadays though, the main thing that I love about him is probably his kindness. Through everything I've seen of him, he seems like a person who genuinely cares and loves, and goes out of his way to make others happy in small ways. There's a reason the Emerald Tree Minecraft saga is one of my favourites. I recently watched a clip where he talked about how he apparently broke down crying (or at least got very emotional) after his debut ended and he was on VC with Genzuki and Nagao. It got me in the feels.
>>5173181It's weird, I'd classify myself as straight, never had any attraction to males IRL, even a close gay friend of mine, who I'd consider quite good looking, just not attractive to me.
Yet, admittedly I've had moments where my heart flutters when it comes to various Nijimales. I don't count just considering people like Mashiro or Genzuki cute in this, because they just are cute. Objective fact. For example on what I'm talking about, my current favourite ASMR is Kaida's heartbeat and his gentle breathing. When I first heard it and realised what it was, I had this image of being cuddled up against Kaida's chest, and the thought was very relaxing. Similarly, Kaida has made...noises, that does things to me. Akina is also in there in making my heart flutter.
I'm not really sure how to described this attraction. Maybe I'm slightly bi but only for more idealised anime types.
