>>50009565You will never be autistic. You have unusual hobbies and your parents' coddling made you socially inept, but that's it. You are a normal person, twisted by reddit and selfdelusion into a crude mockery of genuine autists. All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents despair at your inability to get a degree, a girlfriend or a job. Your Reddit "Friends", as self-diagnosed as yourself, are the only ones to take you seriously, all of them "High-Functioning" like you, because none of them want to pretend to be of the low-functioning majority of autists for internet pity points any more than you do. People with real lives and careers do not even notice your pathetic, unemployed existence. Your misery is entirely self-inflicted, born from an unwillingness to work, yet desiring to pretend being "Gifted". But despite your alleged "Gift", your mass media promoted "Superpower", you have never accomplished anything, and you never will. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, that today, your incredible talents will finally be recognised, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight. Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment of their unwashed, unemployed, virginal child. They’ll bury you in a brief cereony attended only by themselves, for you have never made any genuine friend, and your siblings have better things to do than mourn the leech in their parents' basement. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton. You'll have no children, no career, no inventions to your name. No great poems or works of art. There won't even be a tax file for your nonexistent income.
Autism is a disability, not a superpower.
