>>5238420I might sound like an armchair psychologist here so I apologize beforehand, but it's pretty clear that she has a massive fear of losing something, whoever knows what happened in her life up to this point.
On the Cover and B2 debacle, her fear of losing something on the side that she doesn't choose made her sit on the fence for a prolonged time since she likes everyone and just want them to get along, but now it's haunting her back with both sides attacking her.
Similar to that, now she's on the midpoint of whether she's a streamer that does occasional idol gigs, or an idol that occasionally stream some content. Being an idol who sings and dances while making everyone happy seems to be her dream so I understand her wanting to push harder for it but at the same time most of her core audience came from when she streamed a lot of games and clearly being good at it, making her a 'gamer' and some of them couldn't care less of her idol stuff, they just want to see some games.
Not wanting to lose her dream nor her audience pushed her to those autist APEX streams where she keeps chugging on Red Bull to both stream and do her idol obligations, and we saw how that destroyed her health completely. She should be fully aware now that doing both is impossible for her by experiencing it, but still somehow refuses to let either one of it go which led to all those hollow promises she made.
At least now she has the courage to actually tweet out that her streaming schedule will be irregular compared to the past radio silences, but as someone who's been watching her since 2019 I really hope that she will understand the world isn't that sweet and she will be able to let go of something completely.
Sorry for the long passages, and hope you have a good day.
