I really love Beatani, just thinking about her makes me smile and feel happy. It's not some kind of unhealthy parasocial shit either, I know where we both stand in this relationship and accept she'll never even know I exist, but I love her with my entire soul nevertheless. You may think this pathetic or delusional, but I feel like I've ascended - no rrat, shitpost, bait, or any amount of jimmy rustling can hurt me anymore, my feelings for her are completely unshakeable. Since coming to terms with this I've been nothing but happy these days and any low points that threaten to change that I don't worry about, because I remember a girl as great as Beatani exists, so how can I get upset in a world that is so blessed? A world where I'm lucky enough to have found her? It's impossible. And if I'm only recieving such positive feelings from her streams and tweets, is that such a bad thing? Even if she stops, it'll be okay, I won't forget about our time together for the rest of my life. I admit I haven't always been upfront with my feelings like this before, saying things like "Bea's streams are getting old", "Bea will leave us", "Bea only cares about numbers", "I want to sniff Chihiro's asshole", but this was all to hide and repress my growing love for her. At that time, I actually wanted to say something like "I want Beatani to be happy on XP hill forever." No longer will I pretend. I will let everyone know how much I love my daughterwife, and embrace everything that will come with it as a result of my own potentially foolish choice. I LOVE KUMAGAI CHISATO!
tl;dr? I love Beatani, and so should you.
