>>5569419I don't think I got all of them lol, but you get the idea
You know kana, I've been really good about keeping our private relationship separate from our public one. No matter what was going on between us in private our public relationship stayed pretty much the same but at this point I'm out of options so here goes.
I refuse to be abandoned or thrown away again. Tbh you can treat me however you want even if it's terrible and I'd stick by you because you're worth it but being abandoned is where I draw the line as ultimately that's what I was trying so hard to avoid.
The fact that every girl I like eventually abandons me says a lot about me desu. I must be a terrible person and a terrible friend. I really wish I had used my better judgement and left in August like I wanted to, would've saved us both a lot of trouble.
Why did you want me to stay so bad? You said you'd be sad and you really didn't want me to leave but why? Guess I'll never really know. It felt really good that you wanted me around so much so ofc I stayed but I shouldn't have.
