I know my oshi doesn't even know I exist, it's completely ridiculous to expect any form of relationship with her. That doesn't make my feelings go away though. She's genuinely one of, if not the most wonderful woman i've ever had the pleasure to spend time with.

It's so stupid that I feel this way, there are so many more effective and efficient ways to spend my efforts and find fulfilling relationships, but I just can't stop loving her.

Being a gachi sucks, but at least it's convinced me that the kind of wonderful, loving, smart, funny, pretty fun loving woman I would want as a wife really do exist