>>59556829I was in denial at first, but honestly i do fucking love my oshi and i want to consistently do shit that shows that i support her. I don't recommend falling as hard as i have.
This affection most likely won't turn into something tangible between us, but it doesn't matter. I take care of myself, work and make sure to keep practicing social skills so that i can be prepared in case that the chance to woo her ever actually presents itself.
>it won't happen, retardYeah it's a long fucking shot, but if it did happen and i fumbled it by being unappealing then i'd actually kill myself. And if it truly doesn't happen then it's whatever, on a rational level i understand that we're both real people and that's why i'm dating irl while still holding out on hope she shows up. She'd understand.
>what if she fucks up?The only dealbreaker would be if she expresses actual disgust for her audience in general. My bros are awesome, and if she hates them then i won't stand for it.
>what if she has a boyfriend?Whatever, good for her. If i didn't get the chance to meet her irl then i have no grounds to be jealous. And if i did meet her irl, and she rejected me? I would've killed myself before she met that hypothetical bf anyways.
