I'm not feeling too good today. I could really use a hug from a holo. A hug from Polka. I hope I can read some addiction stories from you guys so I know that I'm not alone.

I woke up to Suisei's amazing voice. She's really great, I hope IRyS will at least be as good as her. But even if she isn't, I will support her. Every holo deserves love. And I love all of them.

My uncle decided to check up on me today asking me about my studies since he paid for it. I didn't tell him that I dropped out to draw for a little above minimum wage. He seemed disappointed when he found out. Now my family knows I'm a neet so I'll have to move in with my mom. I guess my money problem is solved for now but I don't feel happy about it. I get even more depressed thinking about how my mom has to work so I could live. I don't know. I'm even more depressed than before. I couldn't even finish my Polka drawing. I just look at it and I feel disappointment. At myself. I would never be disappointed with Polka. I love her a lot.

In other news, I had another dream about Amelia, a very sad one. I'll post it in the dream thread I suppose.