uni-mafumafu.jp/blog/20240126/Thank you for your continued support. This is Mafumafu.
I sincerely apologize for causing such a situation again, and I'm truly sorry.
I will talk about the reported news, "Getting married and divorced. Filing a lawsuit against the partner."
As mentioned in the article, I was originally in a marital relationship. I couldn't publicly disclose it until now, and I ended up deceiving everyone, for which I sincerely apologize.
We started dating before the summer of 2021, got married at the end of December, and divorced in July 2022.
I'm truly sorry if my silence has caused pain or shock to some people due to the unexpected nature of this situation.
I deeply apologize to everyone who has been concerned or inconvenienced by this matter.
To avoid further lies and to be true to myself, I have decided to speak the truth.
By speaking the truth, I may face lawsuits. I may cause trouble to many people. I might never be able to have people listen to my music again.
I might be disliked by everyone, told they never want to see me again, and I might not be able to continue as Mafumafu.
Still, I don't want to tell more lies. Above all, I don't want to live while pretending to be someone I'm not.
So, I will speak.
What follows is a summary of the events from that time to the present. It will be a lengthy text, so I recommend reading it only if you want to know the truth.
I cherished my partner (hereinafter referred to as Ako). Until around spring 2021, I, as mentioned in a magazine interview, realized that I couldn't feel typical romantic feelings towards others.
At that time, I met someone who expressed love for me despite my inability to have conventional romantic feelings. Despite opposition from close friends and acquaintances, we started dating and got married. It is an undeniable fact that I genuinely cared for Ako.
I had been considering announcing the fact of our marriage. Of course, it would contradict my previous statements, and I was afraid of the public's reaction. Still, I wanted to announce it properly from us rather than it being known in an unfavorable way.
However, during our marriage, Ako was also an internet personality, and due to Ako and her associates' wishes, we couldn't make the announcement. There were times when I considered revealing everything in response to a particular controversy, but due to various constraints, it was not possible.
In that environment, I became increasingly distressed, and encounters with Ako became more strained. At that time, I was being criticized vehemently every time I made a minor disagreement. Over time, I started to believe, "Everything is my fault," and my days became dark and hopeless.
In that blind state, not knowing what was normal, I acted solely to appease Ako and avoid upsetting her.
Every day, I sat in front of the computer, kept LINE and Discord open, and responded promptly to hundreds of messages daily. I even logged into Discord servers 24/7 to be monitored, provided proof that I wasn't cheating, and kept my phone on, constantly responding, even while sleeping.
Looking back, it's hard to believe, but at that time, I accepted such a situation as normal.
Even in such circumstances, there were allegations like, "You married for money," and I kept apologizing without fully understanding what was happening.
Unable to make decisions for myself and not knowing what to do, I was saved by the words of my important partner.
When I regained my sanity, I finally realized that many of Ako's actions and behaviors constituted emotional abuse. I started considering divorce because it was no longer possible to continue the relationship. Initially, Ako strongly expressed not wanting a divorce and claimed to reflect on past actions. I explored the possibility of resolving our issues without divorcing.
I had already purchased a new home for us to live together. I thought that living together would alleviate Ako's anxiety. However, due to the deteriorating relationship, Ako stayed in the new home while I continued to live in the rented apartment, maintaining distance from each other.
Shortly thereafter, Ako began making statements on social media hinting at dissatisfaction with me. These statements were far from the truth and attracted criticism from third parties against me. Despite repeated requests through a lawyer to stop such statements, there was no improvement.
In an effort to improve our relationship and stabilize our mental states, I proposed revealing some facts publicly to counter misinformation and correct the narrative. However, Ako's representative rejected the suggestion, citing the desire to start a new phase of activities and asked to refrain from announcing the marital relationship.
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