Deleting this in a few hours.
Don't talk to us about the things that are going on right now please. I don't care. I don't want to care. Those people destroyed me and destroyed my dreams and my endless hours of hard work. I don't want to be kind and selfless and wish the best for everyone anymore. Let me be selfish for a little bit. Let me not have to remember. Let me not have to think. Let me wish that we could've all left with the things we worked so hard to have, and let me just enjoy things with my sister without the crushing reminder that because we were treated like garbage, other people might be treated better. It doesn't feel good to hear those things. Those girls do deserve happiness. They do, and I know they're just chasing after their dreams as well. But I'm not a saint. I'm not perfect. I can't sit here and just be happy for everyone involved. I just can't. I'm sorry. I wish I could, but it's a cold, hard fact that if things turn around, it's because we were treated like shit and forced to abandon everything we built in order to save our sanities. It's because they got so much backlash for treating us like we were nothing and all the workplace abuse my friends and I suffered, that they're saying that they'll "turn things around." And if they really do, that's great. But it doesn't change the fact that things only will have gotten better because we were trampled first. I do hope that things change for the better. I hope those girls achieve their dreams and everything they hoped for, and I hope they find success. But I can't be happy for them. I hope they don't suffer like we did, but please don't expect me to be all happy and supportive of them. I can't do it. I'm only human. Let me be selfish. I've spent too long sacrificing myself to try and help save the people who looked at me like I was worth nothing. I'm done. I don't care. I wish I could, but it's a cold, hard fact that if things turn around, it's because we were treated like shit and forced to abandon everything we built in order to save our sanities. It's because they got so much backlash for treating us like we were nothing and all the workplace abuse my friends and I suffered, that they're saying that they'll "turn things around." And if they really do, that's great. But it doesn't change the fact that things only will have gotten better because we were trampled first.
I do hope that things change for the better. I hope those girls achieve their dreams and everything they hoped for, and I hope they find success. But I can't be happy for them. I hope they don't suffer like we did, but please don't expect me to be all happy and supportive of them. I can't do it. I'm only human. Let me be selfish. I've spent too long sacrificing myself to try and help save the people who looked at me like I was worth nothing. I'm done. I don't care.
This is the only time I'm going to say this.
I'm sorry if you guys are disappointed in me.
I'm sorry I'm not endlessly kind and a good enough person to be happy for them. I really am sorry. I tried, but I couldn't.
