>>76429640I also struggle with the same kind of shit where I acknowledge something bad about myself, and get hyper-aware of it and paranoid that I’m falling into it and violating my own morals. When I told people about it, this is what they replied with to make me feel better about it:
Being scared of, but acknowledging this trait in yourself means you’re self aware. That means you’re making an effort and are better off than someone who’d blindly do these things without caring about the people they’re affecting. That self awareness is what’s important, and you’re not bad for feeling it in the first place. If you choose to act on it one day, that’s a betrayal of yourself. But till then, you’re doing nothing wrong. The conflict means you care. And if they knew about this thought crime dilemma, a good fan/friend wouldn’t think harshly of it.
I’m not making a commentary towards gachi or unicorn shit, this is solely towards your emotional conflict in a vacuum, and whatever personal standards you’ve set for yourself. Hope it’s of some use.