>>76832893I mostly agree with everything you said and this is all fine and good - except that the situation with Kotoka is between her and Zaion, not Doki. Therefore it's kind of besides the point that Doki said not to attack anyone and to just move on from it.
Sayu does not feel this way. Sayu feels betrayed and alone, suffering in her little corner, with no catharsis.
In a strange way, Doki got off easier than Sayu in the sense that by having taken so much bullshit from the company - and even her colleagues - for so long, and having them so thoroughly make her enemy #1 afterwards and internally beforehand, this gave her mind the easy out of 'well it's black and white, they're all bastards just like I already thought, I get to walk away guilt-free with a clean conscience, knowing I was the victim and that I was up against the evil company.'
Sayu does not have this. For Sayu, she wasn't in there long enough to see just how deep the rot really went, to become slowly acclimatised to all the fuckery and to know that's what they're all like. Sayu didn't have time to learn all their dark ways and just how dark grey everyone in there really was; she had no time to prepare herself or collect evidence for a year, no time to be sure of her own thoughts.
For Sayu, it went like: she was there for a few months, thought she was close friends with certain members, talking to them for hours in discord calls and confiding in them... and then BAM suddenly she's cut off from everyone, excommunicado, slandered as a pedo and a racist and everything else, harassed and doxxed and all on her own with no one on her side and the aforementioned friends all siding against her, talking shit about her IN PUBLIC and then everyone moved on. No catharsis, silver lining or anything - and she is still just mostly left in this position (in her own mind anyway).
For Sayu, it's not as clear cut and she will always have the painful sense that she was painfully betrayed by her actual friends, that they were good one moment and then impossibly cruel to her the next, that she can never truly be sure she was really in the right, that what if she really did fuck up and deserve it because how else could you explain such a betrayal.
In context of this, I can't feel too bad about shittalking Kotoka and condemning all of them on an anonymous yarn-spinning forum.
