>>77993675 (Me x3)Since this thread was still alive once i woke up i decided to look a little more because there were some things that i knew i remembered him saying but couldn't find, so here are some more things I've found:
From his "i have a lot on my mind" stream that took place last June
>"I will always be hyperflirtatious and...yknow fanservicey and i will always give kisses and stuff. And i never wanna stop being....yknow for the ladies."https://youtu.be/ZqdEC8tirOo?t=1h33m39s>"Obviously i do enjoy it, i wouldnt have done it so much if i [didn't] enjoy it."https://youtu.be/ZqdEC8tirOo?t=1h36m21s>"The reason why i went down that path in the first place was because i couldn't say no."https://youtu.be/ZqdEC8tirOo?t=1h38m2s>"I wouldn't have done that kind of thing had i been given the choice. Well....i WAS given the choice(..)but it still is something that if you had asked me 'Will you be doing this' before i debuted in Nijisanji i would have said 'What? Fuck no.'"https://youtu.be/ZqdEC8tirOo?t=1h38m26s2 months later, he reiterated and said he was uncomfortable doing the ASMR streams. I dont know if this is the clip i remember seeing previously, but he says it anyway so it works.
>"Since the start of the year its been making me more and more uncomfortable over time."https://youtu.be/TGyKzijoNhI?t=2m59sAnd then 6 months later, in November, was when he released his movie and his "The truth" video
https://www.youtube.com/live/NwtmvfEQfCIThis was when he REALLY cracked down on all things BFE, (see the post i made previously) and he said things that basically amounted to "I do what i want, i dont want you guys worrying about me or having a parasocial relationship with me because i dont know you and you dont know me"
(Also image attached is relevant. Even his long time fans and members had no clue whether what he was doing/saying was "real" or not, and truly thought that they were basically never seeing the "real Vox" after all)
Last thing is his "Plastic Cow" stream. I can't link any string of quotes because its him telling a story he wrote, but this came after the controversy where his fans were telling him that he should at least warn them when he's going to rp fucking doxxing himself live or throwing up on stream and he thought they were being parasocial and telling him what to do, so the entire metaphor underlying this stream, from what i understood, is him basically saying that his fans were using him for their own desires and not letting him do what he wants.
The final quote of the stream:
>"No one milks a cow to save its life, they're just thirsty."https://youtu.be/oCq-WgkftRM?t=30m39sAfter which he crushed his "gold contacts", or rather, insinuating that no, he wont change his models eye colour to yellow to indicate when he's "not rping" during stream which is a solution that many of his fans suggested to him.
So after all this, absolutely INSISTING and doubling down that this is what he wants and his fans are suffocating him and they dont understand, he's just back to BFE and giving his fans kisses like nothing ever happened.
For a long time now I've been thinking about the weird shit he did and have been fascinated by why he did it, but at this poiny i don't think im ever going to understand what goes through this guys head. Nor would i want to at this point, not after the black screen stream.
