I'm trying to not fall in love with the idea of being in a relationship with a girl.
I only want to have a relationship with someone who fits the exact parameters of what I want, and being part of a conservative mindset is not helping. I've tried to become more progressive and "open-minded", but all that results in is even more confirmation of the negative biases I hold towards people, especially women.
The stereotypes are so prevalent that I don't even want to discuss this anymore; the topic is so exhausted in my brain and in my social interactions at school along with other groups/communities. I keep going out of my comfort zone in the hope that people don't really act like the stereotypes I see online, but it's just so disheartening because I keep getting proven right.
Sure, there are exceptions to the rule, but they're so few and far between that attempting to change a community to be better people only results in pushback. It's like trying to get fentanyl addicts or alcoholics to stop doing drugs. They're always to relapse, so whats the point in helping? Again, exceptions to the rule I know, but why should we help people if we're not seeing any long-term results?
For example, League of Legends players have never once shown any kindness, understanding, or empathy.
I figured that was just me seeking our a confirmation bias, but I continued to find only disheartening examples of people with poor emotional regulation and impulse control. Even if you attempt to get them out of the League circle, it comes back to the previous statement.
Thankfully I've relapsed less on porn because of my own drive to better myself. I mostly watched romantic porn cause it was cute, and I can't jerk it to hardcore stuff.
