im always so exhausted after working my shitty retail job but i always do my best to act happy and lively for my viewers because i dont want to burden them. i wish i could come clean and tell them that i work a crappy retail job and thats why i can only stream a few hours a week when id rather stream for much more every single day so i can spend time with my viewers. part of me always wants to keep vtubing as a hobby because it brings me joy but lately ive been injured at work due to the workload and im starting to wish i would get lucky like the other girls so that i could do vtubing full time to pay my bills and debts. i feel like if i tell my viewers i work a shitty retail job thatd make them pity me and would feel as though im pity baiting for donations but i also wish i could vent to them about how stressful my job is and how stressful it is to deal with physical injuries as a result of my job which in turn means more debt due to all the hospital visits ive had to go to lately. i feel like other vtubers dont have to deal with this problem because theyre either luckier than me and have a supportive audience or theyre younger than me and dont have bills/live off of their parents so i dont know who i can talk to about this.