Of course, everyone gets hit with the blues from time to time
>>83260989, but some days are much brighter than others. What matters is that you get yourself back up. Things get better, trust me, unless you are condemned to dying very soon.
Live every moment as though people will reflect upon what you accomplished so far. Make great things, learn skills and new knowledge, make friends. Life is filled with good things, like your oshi, so it's always worth living it to the fullest for her or him. Be someone they would be proud of.
Take care fren!