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https://youtu.be/W0mgPXJ75co?t=190
>yesterday she passed out sleeping while thinking about life
>she said everything she wanted to say to aqua and asked everything she wanted to ask
>as to why she didn't collab with aqua, aqua clearly knows what she wants to do and she thinks that's admirable but she was unsure if she could make herself presentable on stream at such an important moment and make it fun so she chose to watch from the sidelines
>she's still on good terms with aqua
>when gen 2 first debuted, subaru was the one who fell behind the pack, she didn't have the endurance to stream for long periods of time
>at that time, the others helped pull her forward with aqua in the lead
>that's why everyone was really happy when aqua came back from her hiatus, at the time subaru thought, "FINALLY! She's coming back! AQUA YEAH!!!" but she didn't tell aqua that because she didn't want to put pressure on her
>subaru wanted to perform lives, events and songs with all of gen 2
>it was the moment she was waiting for
>the reason why she waited is because of how everyone helped her during the early days, she also wanted to become someone who could support her genmates
>that's why whenever her genmates took breaks or whatever she didn't complain
>(crying) she thought that if she herself kept working hard, someday gen 2 could hold their own lives or events
>therefore she has been working hard without rest in order to grow as a streamer and become someone who is capable of supporting and pulling everyone forward
>she thought that if she worked hard, gen 2 could one day be able to hold their own events and maybe aqua will come back
>then when aqua came back, she was so happy, but then she quit
>she was shocked when she heard the news and got really depressed and there was a period of time when she lost motivation but she clarifies that she's not blaming aqua or anything
>when she watched hololive gamers hold their event with her participating as a guest, the thought crossed her mind that she was a member of gamers but of course she's just a guest and being gen 2 is her number 1 desire
>she says that her waiting for aqua was just her selfish desire and that everyone in gen 2 is working towards their own goals
>at the end of the day that's just how gen 2 is, it's a gen filled with people pursuing their own goals (not in a bad way, she says)
>so she gave up on waiting for aqua, aqua is moving forward in her own way pace so she will work hard too in her own way
>today she went to sushiro with other holomems and got cheered up by them
>she didn't want to show herself crying to her fans
>she won't talk about this again
>this talk will be archived but if she feels like it she will delete it
>she was agonizing on what to tweet out, but ended up just doing work and falling asleep
>in the end, the first group song gen 2 ever did was a graduation song
>she did try to get a song done in the past, but it fell through due to scheduling issues and she regrets not pushing forward with it
>aqua was the kind of member to follow through with something once she's decided on it, so she feels that what she did was fine
>had she not gone with the other holomems to eat sushi she probably would've cancelled today's stream
>she spend the whole month of august holding onto her emotions so it was hell for her
>she could not bring herself to watch aqua's graduation live
>other holomems left parting messages like "itterasshai" but subaru couldn't say it, she didn't want to say it
>yesterday she passed out sleeping while thinking about life
>she said everything she wanted to say to aqua and asked everything she wanted to ask
>as to why she didn't collab with aqua, aqua clearly knows what she wants to do and she thinks that's admirable but she was unsure if she could make herself presentable on stream at such an important moment and make it fun so she chose to watch from the sidelines
>she's still on good terms with aqua
>when gen 2 first debuted, subaru was the one who fell behind the pack, she didn't have the endurance to stream for long periods of time
>at that time, the others helped pull her forward with aqua in the lead
>that's why everyone was really happy when aqua came back from her hiatus, at the time subaru thought, "FINALLY! She's coming back! AQUA YEAH!!!" but she didn't tell aqua that because she didn't want to put pressure on her
>subaru wanted to perform lives, events and songs with all of gen 2
>it was the moment she was waiting for
>the reason why she waited is because of how everyone helped her during the early days, she also wanted to become someone who could support her genmates
>that's why whenever her genmates took breaks or whatever she didn't complain
>(crying) she thought that if she herself kept working hard, someday gen 2 could hold their own lives or events
>therefore she has been working hard without rest in order to grow as a streamer and become someone who is capable of supporting and pulling everyone forward
>she thought that if she worked hard, gen 2 could one day be able to hold their own events and maybe aqua will come back
>then when aqua came back, she was so happy, but then she quit
>she was shocked when she heard the news and got really depressed and there was a period of time when she lost motivation but she clarifies that she's not blaming aqua or anything
>when she watched hololive gamers hold their event with her participating as a guest, the thought crossed her mind that she was a member of gamers but of course she's just a guest and being gen 2 is her number 1 desire
>she says that her waiting for aqua was just her selfish desire and that everyone in gen 2 is working towards their own goals
>at the end of the day that's just how gen 2 is, it's a gen filled with people pursuing their own goals (not in a bad way, she says)
>so she gave up on waiting for aqua, aqua is moving forward in her own way pace so she will work hard too in her own way
>today she went to sushiro with other holomems and got cheered up by them
>she didn't want to show herself crying to her fans
>she won't talk about this again
>this talk will be archived but if she feels like it she will delete it
>she was agonizing on what to tweet out, but ended up just doing work and falling asleep
>in the end, the first group song gen 2 ever did was a graduation song
>she did try to get a song done in the past, but it fell through due to scheduling issues and she regrets not pushing forward with it
>aqua was the kind of member to follow through with something once she's decided on it, so she feels that what she did was fine
>had she not gone with the other holomems to eat sushi she probably would've cancelled today's stream
>she spend the whole month of august holding onto her emotions so it was hell for her
>she could not bring herself to watch aqua's graduation live
>other holomems left parting messages like "itterasshai" but subaru couldn't say it, she didn't want to say it
