>>84237385No I assure you the thread isn't to blame, I'm mentally ill all by myself.
I was a hardcore chumbud and religiously watched everything she did for years until one of the many ghost periods was so long and upsetting to me that I just couldn't in good conscience support her anymore, just thinking about her made me more sad than happy. Nowadays I occasionally watch her again here and there but I never re-membered nor send SCs anymore.
What I meant I guess is that there's a difference you can feel in how much fun you get out of a stream just by the stream being fun and how much more you get when the girl is also earnestly your oshi and you're able to 100% go all in on her.
