>>85362603The shortest answer? No idea why, simply kept the design.
The long one? Get yourself comfortable for quite a lot of text. Also Im ESL af so be ready for a lot of word salads
To begin with, the initial model and concept behind this was a more whimsical personification of something purely done out of interest, and nothing else. I never cared about gaining the race by looks, even if when I began I had a completely different aim.
In time, I was simply accustomed to the looks of it, I always liked the possibility of making something and choosing it as a way to portray your ideas, so it stuck with me for the rest of time, as I don't really care about looks. Also because, even if saying it sounds incredibly autistic or something of the sort, I like the idea of people not even giving it a chance because of how it looks, I quite honestly enjoy those passive filters which help with others, more in that down here:
As I finally embraced what I liked more, the whole potato thing also gained a new property: It allows me to be even less of a recognizable thing. A potato with lips and just weird eyes is nothing new or hard to make for yourself, yet the mere idea of having to watch someone like that could be disgusting to others, in that I find a more than interesting point. I do not want to talk about things and have you lost in me, I do not talk because I want to be looked at, I do not say what I do because I expect any kind of reward, I quite enjoy knowing that you most are even looking away or using it as background noise instead of watching it. I gain nothing if the looks are what carries me, I do not need you to look at me, I need you to pay attention to what I say, and if the model helps then so be it, we all win that way. And if your superficiality holds you back from ever giving it a chance I can only say "sorry for disrupting" and continue with my stuff, I gain very little when I try to change the mind of someone who is stuck so much in the most superficial level of appearances. If you can judge a character based on the abstraction that they can realize (or sometimes don't even have the possibility of realizing themselves but rather need the help of another mind to picture their own self) then I do not need to tell you anything, as your view of the world has you constantly being in the edge observing the rest and predicting as much as you can from it. But whatever, I do not mean it as an attack so I will guess you can get the point by now lmao
And also there is a final reason, a more honest one: Because I don't have a pc good enough to use a bettter model. I haven't even started to make the new one as I have, so far, no more money left for a new pc and I can't make such an investment mostly to just have a new model on screen and nothing else. I need something capable of running OBS + whatever software I use at atleast fucking 30fps solidly, and they aren't cheap here. So I will keep working on that until I can get one, and after that I will start working on the new model which I mentioned like once in a tweet, but which I know my pc can't in any way run right now.... And yeah, I'm sorry for being such a narcissistic guy or whatever, but even with a new model I will still use from time to time the potato. I still don't like the idea of attracting by looks.
I think that would be it, I could go further but I think its understandable enough with just that, just don't overthink it. There are a thousand chuubas out there to watch which have a better design and will probably be entertaining in their own way more to you than what I could ever be, so if there is no reason to really do it don't force yourself to watch me anon, life is to be enjoyed! Worry less and live more the good things!
