>>86469043>streaming in particular was emotionally draining?She said her work ethic is too bad for what is asked of her, while you put that together with comments she made months ago about her entering an endless cycle of anxiety because of the amount of work she has to do (and which all point to undiagnosed and unmedicated ADHD) plus the number of times she has apologized to her fans because "she no longer meets the expectations that we deserve" and you can already get an idea of where all this is coming from. I remember last year she said something like "Now I finally don't have to travel anymore, the streams are going to come back after this," and a month later she was already in Japan again, and she came back stressed and disappeared after that, also after her 3rd anniversary she took a break because she said she was stressed when she realized that 1 more year had passed. At some point she got lost in her life
Between all that, her moving into a termite infested shithole that she had to almost immediately move out of out, and her developing a gluten allergy basically making her feel sick 24/7, technical issues with having to fix her PC and home-made 3D studio, and management shooting down a few of her ideas; it's pretty clear Ame has spent the past 2 in-a-half years in this weird negative feedback loop and believes leaving to start fresh with no types of obligations is her best course to reignite her drive/break that loop
The shit is really sad because it feels she's utilizing the most extreme option 1st, when there was probably a better way to work through this had people actually known how she felt, but Ame has always come off as the type who'd rather suffer in silence than potentially be a burden, but now we have to suffer the burden of her being gone, but I suppose her solution to that was this affiliate status
