Hope I won't sour the mood too much because everyone seems to have switched to a hopeful mood. At the moment I feel the same and I trust Ame. It's just that I'm planning to drink and watch last members karaoke so I thought to reminisce a bit.
I didn't manage to watch most of the recent streams, only saw bits of aquarium stream. Started karaoke VOD but decided to watch it later when I have time and booze and when my heart is ready. Watched the final stream live, it was in the middle of the night for me. In retrospective its scuff makes me chuckle but I was devastated at the time. I felt really bad because everything was going wrong with Ame's stream, multiple goodbyes with long delays inbetween were killing me. I was constantly close to tearing up but tears just didn't come out until much later, felt just empty at the time. Everything felt wrong, sad and uncertain. And of course the fact that I was tired and had to work afterwards getting barely an hour of sleep.
Since then it got better bit by bit thanks to roingus activity and somehow sometimes I even feel better than before Ame's announcement. I started self-reflecting thinking about things long gone I took for granted and then... I don't know, it's like a new door opened for her and somehow for me as well, like some long series season has just ended and I felt anxious but also hopeful. It's more like a... bittersweet? feeling now. But I feel like I didn't get proper closure from the final stream at all so I'm back to Ameoke.
Anyway, sorry for the long blogpost. I finished my work week and I'm off to watch the karaoke for the first time. Share your favorites from that stream if you want. I'll be drinking to Ame and gators well-being as well, cheers!
