>>89206402Well, it seems that you care for your oshi, from what you said, but it still feels like you're overextending yourself for her, who may not meet you in the middle. It could make you a more informed person, but how are you even going to let her know? You're counting on a miracle to bring you both together when she's in need of your advice, and not anyone else's.
What I'm saying is that this is more of an internal conflict with yourself. She doesn't know, and won't know, so realistically she won't help bring you this idealized situation to fruition. I suggest you figure out why this overwhelming desire to know more information about her. I'm certain it's a slight obsession over her.
